You were never in my old dreams; why are you in these? The same dream has been in me now for almost a week, and I don't remember it from ever before. The same things happen - sometimes I remember an additional scene, or get clarification because I wake up later, but (as is typical for me) there are no changes to the storyline - and there is no real ending. There never is to my dreams.
I dreamed I hurt you. You were crying - in the middle of the stairway, just tears - but my hurting you was necessary, my friend. Still, I felt badly about it. I returned to you; I accepted your gift; we talked. You pushed; I refused; you gave up and we remained good friends. My father - the figure that's nothing like my earthly father and yet I know, in some dreams, is my father (and therefore think of, when waking, as my Father) - protected me from those wrongs that you couldn't help trying to push me into.
It is comforting to me that, in my dreams (which have always been prophetic), this does work out. I want so much for God to rule my life; you do not, and yet you are my friend. You stand alone on a high ridge, torn and bleeding from the climb, wondering how you'll make it down the other side - your destination. You rely on yourself for the entirety. Strong, wounded, lost, proud friend...but God has let me speak to you of Him and you do not refuse me. Please, listen to Him even more than to me; find Him and the purpose and strength He gives.
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I don't know if any of this fits but the coincidence of you writing me on Yahoo the same day I decided to reinstall it seems more than coincidence and now, I come here and find that there are two new posts, the latest of which feels directed to me. I'm sure it could fit many people but for some reason the last paragraph speaks to me very strongly. I had a dream last night. I do not remember any of the details, I just remember the person that was in the dream. When I woke up this morning I couldn't quit thinking of this person. I believed it was an old girlfriend that I cared for deeply. (No, not that one, I think I care too much for too many people.) After reading this post I'm now questioning myself as to who was in the dream. This old girlfriend fits your description and what I am getting at with all of this is that I feel like something powerful is going on and if God is working through you again to get to me then He's doing something right because even though I understand nothing of it, I can't quit thinking about it and there's really nothing to think about because I don't even remember what the dream was about, I just remember the feeling of the presence. This is somewhat exciting.
Now, I have to throw out that I'm very paranoid about all of my comma's and where I put them because I remember not too long ago, reading a post about people having learned comma placement in highschool!! *sigh* {=0)
Ach, Jeremy, you've no need to worry about commas. It's only when I'm in the lab, correcting papers & thinking about whether or not things are in their correct place that I'm bothered by minor things like that! Have no fear, the tutor persona is left behind at college as soon as I sign out.
As for the dream: to the best of my knowlege, this dream wasn't about you. Rather, I believe it was about a different friend - one with whom I've been struggling for some time. I needed God's encouragement and the clearing up of several issues (namely: whether to drop this friend or stay a friend to them, because they are so very different from me, especially when it comes to God and morals, that I worried about their pushing me into things I don't want to do).
In the dream, I am protected by my Father from what's, essentially, an attack by this person. That's what I meant when I wrote "the things you couldn't help pushing me into"; that's the understanding I had of what my dream showed. However, after fighting off the attack, my Father didn't take me away from this friend, but had me help instead.
Because I commit my dreams to God every night and because so many of my dreams are prophetic, I take all this rather seriously. I believe I'm supposed to stay in the friendship - even when it's difficult - and trust my Father to take care of me. That scares me, but I'm willing to trust Him.
You, on the other hand, love Him and do want to serve Him. I know He loves that in you. You are loved by Him, and He will never stop loving you. As for your dream: in Proverbs somewhere, it's written that "as iron sharpens iron, so one man sharpens another" - which, roughly modernized, I've always understood as "just like a knife is sharpened by contact with another piece of metal, so friends sharpen and strengthen each other". In that way, yes, God works through you to keep me reminded of why I'm here and let me speak what I love and have learned, and also through me to help you stay on track. He's nutty that way! We both know that regardless of dreams - although, I'll admit, dreams can be a great comfort when they are from Him.
God be with you, my friend, and His grace in and through and over you.
I'm sorry it has taken so long to reply, I would like to say it's because I have been very busy but that would be somewhat of a lie because I do have time to sit down at the computer and do what I want. Sometimes I feel like I'm being kept away from you on purpose. I don't understand it nor do I think I ever will.
The dream, I got excited, probably jumped the gun and rushed to conclusions. It still spoke to me, even if it were about someone else. God does work mysteriously. It feels good in a strange way knowing that there is no telling what He is doing. I question it all the time but deep down inside I really do know He is working on something.
Onto the friend. I think you are strong enough to not be pushed into things you shouldn't be. You have unbelievable faith, the type I've never seen, that is why I admire you so much. I believe that god tests us constantly and this may be another one. I wouldn't think that God would want you to abandon a person in need of Him. Like you said, your Father protected you as He always will. Keep faith and be there for this person you are speaking of. Even if you are in two completely different worlds. I'm a stubborn person yet I still listen and take things to heart. Most of the time I may act like something is irrelevant when it is said to me but I will certainly go home and think about it for a while. This could be the case here. You may be making an impact yet not know it because it doesn't want to be shown for fear that it may be a sign of weakness (on your friends part.)
Dreams are always a great comfort for me, they feel like journeys...from who and to where I don't know but I like it.
Take Care Cilla! {=0)
Jeremy, why do people hurt so badly and yet ignore the only One that can help them at all? It confuses me. I can't imagine carrying anything without my Savior - I've tried living without Him, and it's sheer torture. I think one of the hardest things for me, with this friend, is that they don't know God. When I'm trying to comfort them, they derive no security from anything having to do with Him. All I can use is human comforts: listening, nodding, advice taken from the Word but phrased a little differently (though openly aknowledged to be a part of my faith). I pray, but so often I feel helpless to aid. This is so very difficult, simply because I've been given a heart that bleeds for everyone who's struggling.
In my head, I know the answers to these questions I've asked you, but they still trouble my heart. Please be praying. I want God to be in control of this situation and I want even more for my friend to come to know Him; to find true peace.
Thanks for cheering (both senses of the word); I need that occasionally. I think that you're kept from me when you don't need me; when God is growing your faith in Him without any person. It's very easy to begin to rely on a human being instead of God - we people love physical things. That's why idols were so prevelant for so many thousands of years! Rely on Him. He will give you all the faith, all the strength, you need in every situation.
Keep enjoying those dreams.
Godbless,
Cilla
"Jeremy, why do people hurt so badly and yet ignore the only One that can help them at all?"
I have been struggling with this for a while. All I can come up with is myself as an example. I am far from perfect in regards to being a good Christian. I struggle with this daily and I feel like 75 percent of the time I ignore the One that can help me. This has been very hard for me to even describe to myself why I do this, much less describe it here for you. I think that most people, myself included, do not understand nor can we comprehend the sheer magnitude of the Lords love for us and cannot come to terms with why He can let so much suffering go on in the world (even though it is not Him, it is the human race simply ignoring Him). I think that there may be a sense of resentment towards the Lord at times because of the hardships that we go through in life. I have these feelings a lot yet I know that He tests us to make us stronger and to have more faith in Him. Many people do not have the foundation in the Lord that you have or even the small foundation that I have. When I think of you and your faith I imagine a very large building that can withstand a category 5 hurricane, meaning that you seem to be able to handle any attacks that come your way and for the most part understand them and realize that the Lord is always there for you during these times. When I think of myself and most of society I imagine a small shack that would be blown to bits in a tropical depression so we tend to take personal even the smallest attack and feel like God is not there for us. I know that He is always there to protect and to love, it’s just that at times, it doesn’t feel this way. Your friend may not even have this small amount of faith or understanding. That’s why people are meant to spread the word of God and share His love with others, share the miracles He has performed and to just let people know of the many times that you can feel Him around you, holding you and protecting you. Once you have done that part then all you can do is let God work out his plan.
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