How strange that I - with my passionate, deep-rooted love for people - should have none of my dear friends left in this place. I'm so personable: at my college, I know the security and the janitors by name. I also know just about everyone else. Still, I have been burnt so many times because of that general friendliness that I hold my heart very close to myself. I only show it to those I not only love but also feel I can trust absolutely: a number that I can count on one hand.
Over the years, they've all moved or I have moved away from them. I helped the last friend pack his and his wife's house today; they're moving over 1000 miles away. I feel so very lonely right now. I want a friend - MY friends. I don't want just anyone...I want the people I love.
But You, O my Lord, have chosen this for me. I don't understand it, but You have given me peace. I know that this will become something that allows me to support others; just like every other hurt I've ever gone through has been. Give me strength to stand, Father. Be with me, help me. Without You, I will fall, and I will never get up again. Oh my Lord, You are my hiding place. Hide me in You and cover me in Your love. Make me whatever You want me to be, because it's only in You that anything has meaning.
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