There is no one like You!

I woke up at 4:30AM last night. Just woke - no reason, no drowsiness, one moment asleep and the next completely and totally alert. "It's too early - it's too dark." I got my phone, saw the time, and rolled back over to get back to sleep. As I settled in on my right side, something or someone very deliberately poked me in my upper-left thigh. I jumped! I reached round behind me and searched for the cat or the dog or the finger that had jabbed me. I found nothing.

This made me very nervous. I lay back down. I was jabbed again. I searched again, but I knew now what it was. I felt like Samuel. God wanted me to pray, and He was willing to poke me out of bed until I hit my knees to do it. I rolled out of bed quickly, knelt, and found my soul surrounded.

I'd been telling Him (and myself) that the reason I've not been praying as much is because I don't have anywhere to do it alone. I have been praying, just not as much. I have been reading, just not as faithfully. I have been praising, but not with my whole heart. I'd begun to push Him away, and I was desperately unhappy about that. I'd been begging Him, using scripture, "according to Your love remember me!" - not according to what I am, but according to what I want to be, according to how much I want to follow Him even when I don't want to. He loves me so much, even when I'm a mess. Oi, I'm so grateful for that. I'd been begging Him to give me back my love of worship. I'd been begging Him to give me back my all-consuming love of Him. I'd been begging Him not to let me go. He answered.

He met with me last night, and He's still here this morning. I can feel His presence, and I'd been missing it so badly. I love Him. I love this almost physical sense of His presence: His peace, His joy, His love. I keep bursting out (quietly - some folk are still asleep!) into praise songs; I can't help myself - my God is here! He's listening to them! I can feel the attributes I'm singing about all around me!

This is real life. Nothing else compares. Nothing else is even worth comparing.
I am alive. He is Life. This is awesome.